Why is it so difficult for people to understand that I just can't feel anymore? Nothing's working. I should be working or writing or something other than just sitting here staring at a mindless game I'm far too addicted to. It's like my emotional connection with others has just been dying as I've gone on the internet more and stuff. And then, when I want to get upset about something, my tears dry up just as quickly as they come. It's annoying - and no, I can't think up a stronger word than that because I HAVE NONE.

I'm just

nope I can't do any more of this tonight. Fuck schoolwork (sorry parents), I'm just going to sit here and vegetate because I can't connect with anything and I can't concentrate and I want to do stupid things but I CAN'T so I'm just gonna sit here.

im out